Missing What I've Never Had I'm lying here tonight Missing what I've never had: Missing you. I'm missing all the love You will never give me: It is given to another. I have only my hopes, My dreams, And a few sweet moments with you. Each unexpected meeting Is a treasure to fill my heart But rare. I am easily satisfied, it seems, With one brief glimpse of you to fill my day: But my nights are empty. There is a void in me That only your love can fill But never will. Only love can bring so much joy And so much pain when it is in vain. Fair knight, I would be your squire, Follow you on endless quests, Serve you on bended knee, And ask nothing in return. I am denied even that For a fairer damsel rides at your side. I live only for the hope, However slim, That one day you will ride alone, And I will follow until you take notice, And make me yours. I would destroy any barricades to your love Save the one that means most to you: The one you love. For my love of you, I must hold sacred your love of that other, For breaking it would break you, And breaking you would break me. So I keep my place: A dog at your feet, Savoring the table scraps that are all I deserve, As you and she feast on love. But if you notice me there, Look kindly on me, if not in love, For I will take of you all I can: I treasure the pebbles as others would diamonds For the riches of love are beyond my reach. Spring 1998